Jesus’ Once and Only Life

Jesus’ one life would never have been possible without the many that Mother Mary lived in preparation for it, building gradually towards levels of purification and empowerment required to bear his fully divine human soul into our world and guide it through snares of illusion that come with this. The essence of Jesus’ incarnation was its embodiment of a Love so deeply ingrained that it could withstand every challenge that earthly immersion would put in its way. We hear repeatedly how illusion strikes the moment a soul enters Creation. How could Jesus have avoided this? One answer involves resilience endowed by his soul calibre. Equally important and instructive is the great care taken in preparation for its coming. This includes the purity of his conception (in a spiritual rather than conventionally moral sense) and the absolute integrity with which Mother Mary safeguarded this process throughout her pregnancy and rearing of him from infancy to youth. She was, according to Kaleshwar, his first guru and primary soulmate, again in a non-conventional sense. There is a rich backstory to this that we must review in order to understand the unique profundity of Jesus’ mission, the depth of his relationship with Mother Mary and through Her with Mother Divine.

Our tale begins when Mary is 14 years old during the lifetime for which all her previous incarnations had been a preparation. The Annunciation that Christianity’s New Testament associates with the angel Gabriel being sent by God to declare her imminent pregnancy is inflected differently by Kaleshwar. On his telling she is actually visited by Mother Divine in a full physical darshan. Mary, well used to such intimate association, proclaims her grief at the suffering of the world and asks that she might be allowed to sweep it all away. Mother responds that this option isn’t available to her because, as a woman, she is so deeply embedded in nature and feels everything about it so deeply that she would be unable to act on it in ways that would be required. Men, by contrast, have a measure of detachment (that presumably harks back to Shiva’s prototypically masculine soul disposition). This allows us to stand back from nature and operate on it in a way that women’s depth immersion precludes. It is known that many men ‘operate’ in a controlling mode that aggravates rather than relieves distress. Mother therefore tells Mary that she will bear a son, a uniquely gifted man who will balance operational power with loving compassion in order to bring about the reorientation of human conduct and experience that Mary longs for. Her role will be to prepare him for this mission.

And so Jesus comes to be born, conceived according to Mother’s highest intent in the mode of Ganesh except that an even more enabling yogic culture is also now in place. Well versed in this, Mary recites empowering mantras throughout her pregnancy and during his birth. So clear is she that nothing of Earth’s woes disturbs her infant as she nurses and swaddles him. He is also fortified by gifts received from three Eastern (yogic) kings who come to welcome and anoint him. Kaleshwar notes that Mary had the strongest Womb Chakra and biggest Heart ever, excepting only this son who flourished under her tuition. Other yogis return for him at age 14, much as Baba came to Kaleshwar and Mother to Mary. They escort him to India, where he spends his ‘missing years’ until he returns to the Middle East around 30 years of age. While Christian gospels offer no account of this period, Kaleshwar notes that Jesus travelled extensively through India and Tibet, learning from the greatest teachers and mastering their highest yogas. Baba in his incarnation of that time was one of Jesus’ gurus and Kaleshwar a friend, later to become Mother Mary’s teacher. By this time, according to Kaleshwar, Jesus had become the greatest healer who ever lived. 

Beyond specific miracles attributed by Christian sources, Jesus set himself a two-fold mission: to clear the karma of the world and make healing channels he had learned in India available to all. He had long since learned to commune directly with Mother and did so daily. Taking on so much karma, She explained, would require him to pay a terrible price, greater than he could bear. No matter, he replied, She could do with his body whatever was necessary. The likely outcome of this resolution was known to him in advance. Still there is uncertainty regarding details of his fate. It is said, for example, that he over-ruled his yogic mentors by returning to Jerusalem without major power objects he had collected in the course of his Eastern sojourn. (A power object carries the high spiritual energy of its source, serving to strengthen and protect those into whose possession it is entrusted.) It seems to me that he was resolved to uphold his bargain with Mother whatever the cost. As Kaleshwar states, Jesus could never have been crucified unless he allowed it. As a master of the elements – a walker on water, stiller of winds, multiplier of loaves etc. – he could have changed the Romans’ nails to flowers and their whips to garlands. Was the crucifixion therefore necessary? Could it have been avoided? Evidently not and by his choice, given lofty goals that had been set.

My sense is that Jesus was resolved to deliver the highest result that his incarnation could possibly achieve, far beyond the political resonances of his execution as an alleged insurrectionist. It is also relevant that, even before entering Jerusalem on Palm Sunday, he had used a high yogic technique to deposit (let us say) 90% of his soul power in a time pocket from which it could later be retrieved. A psychological explanation for this might be that it would prevent that portion of his soul from being disfigured by torture. A complementary option is that it makes Jesus’ sacrificial gesture in going freely to the cross more authentically representative of the human potential that he was attempting to rescue from aeons of karma, trauma and related soul-destroying practices. (The Romans crucified millions of people over the duration of their empire; few have been remembered and none possessed anything like Jesus’ Shakti power.) It is also debated whether he suffered on the cross. Some say no owing to his divine nature and others yes as his sacrifice would otherwise have been merely cosmetic. Kaleshwar says that he suffered terribly and that Divine Father-Mother bore his pain.

I would have no idea what this means were it not for a pre-surgical process where I experienced bursts of excruciating pain that were inwardly linked in the moment to stages of Jesus’ crucifixion such that I found myself experiencing on two levels: mundane ego agony as described and at the same a spiritual ecstasy induced by my soul’s mystical participation in his Passion, which almost totally eclipsed my earthly pain. Thus I came to understand that Jesus both did and didn’t suffer, the latter due to his living Awareness of the great trans-cosmic Shiva-Shakti drama that he was serving to unlock. This experience also allowed me to grasp that Jesus’ challenge was forever to maintain an attitude of unconditional Love (as in Prema, the key to realising Truth: below) throughout his ordeal and during days and nights before when he might have faltered. Kaleshwar tells how Jesus’ wrists were nailed down by a soldier who had been blinded in one eye, to which sight was restored by spurting blood. Astounded, the soldier hesitated, reluctant to proceed. Jesus then advised him to do his duty, knowing that the bargain with Mother must be honoured.

Kaleshwar, who attended the crucifixion alongside Mother Mary, mentions yet another detail that I would suspect as superfluous embellishment if it came from any other source. This concerns a claim that Jesus was finally stabbed with elephant tusks. Although these were hardly standard issue to Roman centurions, there is no obstacle here that bribery couldn’t overcome as long as the victim’s ‘death’ was reliably confirmed. Jesus was certainly removing obstacles in the manner of Ganesh, albeit on a more refined level to which the symbolism presumably points. I also allow totally that Jesus recited the Maheshwari prayer as he died, emulating his Father’s wish to be one again with Mother, returning through Her Womb to find completion in Her Heart. Kaleshwar confirms that this re-union was duly achieved, with history’s most fully realised god-man passing graciously out through Mother’s Womb and back to Heart as his Dharma had ordained. On earth, meanwhile, an impending Sabbath required that the lifeless corpse be promptly taken down. Once this happened there was no time to be lost. Another bribe no doubt facilitated immediate release, whereon the body was carried swiftly to a waiting sepulchre. Here Kaleshwar exhorted a stricken Mother Mary to heal her son’s broken body.

Finding her deeply traumatised he had to push through layers of Heartbreak and grief. ‘Fix him! Fix him!’ he repeated, knowing that only Mother Love could repair the brutal damage that had been inflicted. Jolted out of despair, Mary took Jesus’ body into Her lap and, clasping it to Her Holy Womb, blasted him with divine Shakti, reciting mantras and calling back the portions of his soul that had been banked in the time pocket. Kaleshwar compares this episode to Michelangelo’s Pieta (slide 35), which he says offers an energetically exact image of the scene, especially in its depiction of Mary as a Great Mother who would be 9 feet tall were She to stand, the same height as the Kaneka Durga statue that he had installed beside his Samadhi in Penukonda. Indeed, throughout this healing episode, he notes that Mother Mary was equal in power to Maha Kali and an almost total embodiment of Mother Divine Herself. We may sense many profoundly complex threads weaving together in these lines.

That said, despite overwhelming love and admiration for Jesus, Kaleshwar refers to the outcome of his mission as successful failure: successful in that the patterns as evoked above were established, principally a model for clearing karmas of the world through voluntary self-sacrifice and concomitant dedication to miracle healing practices that utilise the same powers as Jesus won from Mother, unequivocally for the sake of all; a failure in that he was unable to prepare his students to the same sublime level as himself, although he predicted a future of greater attainment for them, perhaps to be realised in our present. The problem finally was, according to Kaleshwar, that he loved too much and was thus reluctant to press the students to depths of self-clarification that might have allowed them to overcome fears, jealousy and divisions that arose at the time of his arrest and after his crucifixion. As a result, they lacked unity and cohesion, something that is reflected in Christianity’s early history. For this reason, Kaleshwar was fiercely strict with his students, drilling them to levels of personal and group cohesion so that they could implement and relay his teachings without distorting them or disintegrating into factions.

In any case, once Mother Mary’s healing reanimated Jesus’ body, it was necessary to smuggle him out of Jerusalem as quickly as possible. Eventually, he was brought back to Penukonda, where he lived for more than another fifty years, making major contributions to the tradition. During this time, with a better understanding of difficulties involved in implementing the teachings, he asked Kaleshwar to return in due time and bring the mission to fulfilment. Kaleshwar agreed: whence his most recent (1973-2012) incarnation. Jesus’ physical remains are still in Penukonda, as are Kaleshwar’s. Both continue to work in Spirit, alongside Baba, to promote the inauguration of a Sai Yuga, working through established senior students and others who are even now incarnating for that purpose. Knowing of the hostility shown by Peter and other male disciples towards Mary Magdalene after Jesus’ departure, Kaleshwar was particularly emphatic in stressing the power of the Divine Feminine and the need for actual women to realise it in our time. Thus he specifically trained female masters and appointed one to follow him as leader of the lineage on Earth.

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